The Mohler family clan seems to have really put a new spin on “Keeping it in the family” and how sick and twisted one could be behind closed doors… in their basement… in the chicken coop… in the… well you get my point!  My attention goes towards those who cannot for the life of themselves believe that those God abiding Mohler boys/men could even do such a thing and that they were such good and honest men.

“I don’t feel like I can speak for the entire family. We have a large extended family. But for me personally, I don’t think they’re valid,” Gamble said.

The above quote was from a person who apparently knew the Mohler’s for a very long time (ex-brother-in-law).  He could not bring himself to believe such an evil character could be boiling within such a “nice and Godly” man.  But let us now bring our attention to the wife (Gamble’s sister) of Mohler who died in 1991.

Gamble states “She was still at home in the 1980s when this allegedly happened, so if anything had been going on, she would have stopped it quick. She was very religious and straightforward.”

Why is it that if you are “religious” that suddenly you have X-RAY vision and can see through the blindness of a very long marriage?  It puzzles me to this day.  I’ve been married for over 10 years and I can say that you become more numb to stuff that happens around you versus when you first get married.  Suddenly everything become a passing event/memory.  You don’t pay as close attention to your husband’s activity. 

Why?  I have no idea but it just seems that way.  How many time have you heard of a women married for 20+ years who comes to find out her husband has been having affairs for the past 15 of them and she had NO CLUE!  Shocked and dismayed at the whole thought of it.  She can’t believe it yet she has to because it’s true.  As a women you feel like a idiot.  Being a religious women doesn’t make you more aware, actually it makes you more gullible because you want to believe your husband sees the marriage as you do… a holy covenant you both took with God.

Imagine that these women who were or are married to these men are now wondering how it is that all of this could have happened under their noses.  How could it be that “I didn’t see signs” that something wasn’t right?!  I know if I was one of those wives I would be going through a battery of emotional thoughts… anger, rage, hate, and sadness.

In case you haven’t heard about the Mohler family story.  Here is a brief recap.  All or nearly all six children of Burrell “Ed” Mohler Jr. — including one who is a police officer in a Kansas City suburb — gave credence to the tales of twisted family relationships, according to court documents. Grandpa Mohler’s wife at the time suspected the behavior and went to the church leaders on several occasions. Church leader did question him and he denied the allegations… that was the end of the follow through on Grandpa Mohler.

Their uncles wedded and bedded the young girls a number of times and off to the chicken coop they would go to consummate the mock marriage.  “That’s my boy,” the senior Mohler allegedly said, encouraging a son’s rape of a granddaughter. “You all have fun,” he said another time.  

An unidentified woman — who claimed to have been kept in a crawl space and held long enough to see at least one of her babies buried in the basement at the Old Concord Road property — came forward (she got pregnant 2 times).

Another time all five of the girls were lined up on a bed on their knees, facing away from Jared Mohler, Burrell Mohler, Sr., and Burrell Mohler, Jr., while they inserted foreign objects into the anus of each girl. Reportedly, several objects were used during this incident but only two were identified with one being a pencil and the other being a screwdriver.

Another incident places the oldest girl outside, where she was forced to lie down on her back on a pile of pallets. The victim reports seeing a German Sheppard with something tied around its mouth and then she reports that Mohler, Sr., Mohler, Jr., Jared Mohler and Roland Mohler were all present and that they assisted the dog in climbing on top of her and inserting its penis into her.  Another incident of bestiality alleging Burrell Mohler, Jr. forced one of his daughters to have sexual intercourse with a horse.

The eldest of the girls reportedly became pregnant and had an abortion at the age of 11 and 1/2.

They forced two children to help murder a 300 pound man and bury him!  Three of the alleged abuse victims also said they observed “several murders” on the Mohler property.

Pornographic DVD about having sex with ‘Grandma & Grandpa.’” Senior Stimulation” “Black Dirty Debutantes,” “Virtual Sexuality” and many homemade videos and photos that the details have yet to be released were found during the search by police.

A woman surfaced who accused the Mohlers of holding her prisoner in their basement for over 2 years, impregnating her twice, killing one of her infants and burying it in the floor.

Stolen jewelry from murder victims was kept in wooden boxes, and coded lists of victims were tucked into copies of popular novels.

The Grandfather, father and two uncles forced a series of sexual abuses on the children ranging from sodomy to bestiality.

In 1988, the victim said, she and her sisters decided to run away. They made it to a neighbor’s house before returning home. Mohler Jr., their father, reportedly punished them by making them watch him sodomize their brother.

The 29-year-old woman told police and investigators she and three other children were bound at the wrists and blindfolded while three men raped them.

Besides all the Porno and sex toys they found this is most likely the short list.  It puzzles my mind as to why it seems so difficult for people to believe that someone can do these things.  I mean come on we have squeaky clean Tiger Woods who I will address in my next post.  But boy is he just climbing up the wrong tree! 

I think it is because when we know someone for so long we don’t want to believe it because if we do then we are admitting to not seeing through the veil that covered their very sick ways.  We think that the people around us will questions WHY we didn’t see it happening…. Where were you when this all happened?  How could you NOT know?  These are all questions we never want to be asked yet we must ask ourselves… how well do you know those who are in your life now… before… and in the future. 

 I take this case as an educational experience.  We must all look deeper and be more in touch with everything going on around us and with those who are in our lives.  No one ever wants to believe that their husband, brother, sister, wife, child, or anyone close to them would even be capable of doing such horrors.  Honestly one might questions your own judgment if in fact this type of person was in your life and you didn’t know it.

 As the quote says, LOVE IS BLIND.

I think many whether they know it or not base their decisions on how they may feel others will think of that ultimate decision.  No matter if it is a small decision or a big one.  I know I do though I’d hate to actually admit it.  Not that this is always a bad thing but you have to wonder if you are doing or saying what you are saying because that is really what you think.  It’s like being politically correct.  You say something because you might think you will offend someone.

I’ve had a long struggle with decisions.  Not that I don’t know how to make one on my own.  It’s because many times I will go back and forth on a decision and honestly I think the forth is what others will think and the back is really how I feel.

As many of you already know one of my back and forth decisions is the church that I feel is where I belong.  I have went to various churches and felt very welcome.  Even been going to an Independent Baptist church locally and have very much enjoyed the fellowship and preaching.  suddenly in a flash my body felt cold when asked, “so have you thought about baptism?” My reply, “Ow, yes and I am still thinking about it. Will get back to you once I am 100% ready.”  As if I’m buying a car or something.  Silly truly it is silly.

Fact is that I feel that Heavenly Fathers is talking to me.  Every time I pray about this or think about it I feel him pushing me in a direction… not the direction of this church but towards the LDS church.  I’m sure no one will ever understand and I’ve even stopped having the missionaries come for the lessons.  I’ve completely blocked myself from the church and all around it but my conviction has been stronger than ever.  In the years that I have struggled with this very decision I feel more now than ever that push that the Lord is telling me a message.

I know that many of you think I have marbles in my head and that is OK as well.  I am determined to overcome this decision as time moves forward.  I just wanted to prove to myself that even if I completely pulled myself back and that would still have the passion for the church.  I can bear testimony that it is stronger.

I just felt a strong resistance when this Pastor asked me (several times I might add) that I absolutely should not do my baptism in that church.  It’s like my body will refuse unless it is in the LDS church.  I feel a sense of peace when I think of baptism in the LDS church.  Hopefully one day I will be able to make a clear decision based solely on my own thoughts and not the thoughts of others.  Who knows what the future will hold.  For now I teeter totter between both churches and feel humbled that they are so welcoming to me and my family.

I have always been obsessed with the Ultra Orthodox Jewish culture and I do dress very much like the married women.  When living in Philly I was always miss identified as an Ultra Orthodox woman but it didn’t bother me.  I think that people are moving more towards being modest and covering their heads because we have as a society have gone so dramatically towards the other side.

I don’t keep Kosher of course but I do not ever eat Pork.  There are some things that we do in our own culture that are simular to keeping Kosher but it’s only during the time of Lent and Easter we go through this rituals.

Everyone is making this big who ha about O’Reilly saying that if we’re going to legalize the gay marriage thing well why not polygamy.  In a twisted way I can see where the man is coming from.  I don’t think I have to give you a visual of a gay couple but I think you can imagine for youself.

So if we are going to give gay people the same rights as a traditional couple why not polygamy?  Think about it for a minute.  I find it disturbing that we get so up in arms about the practice of polygamy yet as a society we think it’s evil and unjust that we do not allow gay couples legal idenity.  I mean heck we let them adopt children!!  What is wrong with our society when we say it’s OK for a same sex couple to adopt a child but we have issue on polygamist pacticing a polygamist relationship between a husband and a number of wifes well I think we have our priorities out of place.

Frankly this entire same sex marriage thing is going to open the doors to polygamy because frankly they’ve already started to speak out about it.  You are seeing more and more polygamist speaking up about their beliefs because they are probably thinking, well heck if all those gays are going to bumpin the grind to legalism so why not us.  Hello!  Don’t forget us over here!

I could only imagine what the polygamist practicing individuals are thinking.  Like maybe “gee, after what hell they put us through in the past they sure were quick to support the gays getting married and worst of all adopting and raising children!”

I don’t have much of a view point on polygamy as you can see.  I don’t necessarily fight those who practice it but I don’t embrase it either.  I guess it has to do with me not knowing anyone is this type of relationship nor have I educated myself enough about it.  I do however have had close friends who were gay AND have had first had discussions regarding the gay marriage issue as well as their rights to adopt children.  I do find much about homosextuality to be very anti-Christrian so that is why I really have a strong view point on that topic.

As long as polygamist live their lives in respect to others (not flaunting the fact they are in a plural marriage) I do not find issue with it.  I do however find issue to gay couples who decide to sextually touch each other in front of my children with no respect to who is among them.

I’m trying to make this a positive event in my life and trying to take advantage of where I am now.  I am able to earn some money and learn more.  Plus I have a position that I have wanted for a long time and that was to work for an individual and not a huge company with lots of red tape.

Besides that being really weird I laughed at the next part.  We close the door and my husband says, “so hows your headache?” I turn and say, “it’s competely gone!  Just like that.”  Of course he had to go and say something mean again, “Ow don’t even say it’s because the missionaries were here and they prayed.”  I laughed of course and commented about how this is the second time they came unannounced in my time of need.  HAHA~!~!  I just ignored him.  Whether it was or was not because of them visiting only God and I will ever know so I just chuckled along with him since he seems to find so much of my life a laughable matter.

Tomorrow my mother is coming to stay with us for some time to help out so that I can focus on work.  I am so thankful for her help.  Hopefully this week at work will be full of excitement and new news to blog about.

I have to say that today was one of those days I could easily define as perfect.  Everything went great.  I started my day with a 1.5 mile walk which I am trying to get into a habit of doing.  It felt so great to get out and do it instead of just talking about it!  Last night after my interview I asked a few people in my neighborhood (we were chit chatting at the park) and especially my very blessed older son to pray for me that I would get this job.  My son prayed from deep within and so did a couple of neighbors who have become friends… and my prayers were answered!  As I was walking today I got the call and he said he wanted me to come in on Friday.

I am so blessed and thankful for all those who wish me well, pray for me, and think of me.  I can not find a way to thank people enough.  I needed this job so badly.  I need to focus on my health and well being.  Today was a great day.  I was sure to thank God as well for listening to my little prayer “smile.”

Do you ever have days like this… everything just falls into place.  It’s great!